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(no subject) [Jun. 26th, 2008|05:30 pm]
[music |Q & Not U]

I'm getting pretttyyy frustrated with everyone telling me they're disappointed in me.
I'm mostly positive I've never set any sort of bar for myself- and for some reason I don't meet anyone's expectations.
I was told that I put up a front of being a "good girl." Which is strange- I've never seen myself that way- I've never tried to portray that image.
Someone went as far as to calling me fake.
I dunno- titles are bullshit.
I'm gonna make myself feel better about this and blame all this on the fact that other people are frustrated that they can't figure me out.
That'll do.
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Must Remain Optimistic [Jun. 23rd, 2008|09:28 pm]
[mood | gloomy]
[music |On the Radio- Redina Spektor]

This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath

No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
And walking arm in arm
You hope it don't get harmed
But even if it does
You'll just do it all again
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squirrels [Jun. 6th, 2008|10:15 am]
[mood |out of place]

they hate and beat squirrels for eating bird seed
       how can anyone hate squirrels?
   these people dont recognize how cute they are

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work complaint [Jun. 5th, 2008|11:22 am]
[Current Location |work =[]
[music |ok go!]

naturally complaining about work came before my announcement to come home.
i hate it here
there is no way i'm going to be living here for very long
we'll see how things go- but at this point im totally considering leaving for 2nd semester
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in concan [Jun. 3rd, 2008|12:33 pm]
[Current Location |concan, tx]

my brother and i are both terrible drivers and we made it to my aunts alive! we were supposed to be here a long time ago but we got lost in san antonio and i missed an exit... good times
i've had like two hours of sleep- but i feel fine
i had a lot of time to think while driving (cuz when i wasnt driving i was sleeping) and i found myself smiling by myself [lame]
but yea said good bye to the roomies literally right before i left and i feel like i should have said more than thanks for being so sweet to me [emo]
anyway- next update maybe be a complaint about work or an announcement on my next trip back to the valley
<3
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(no subject) [May. 18th, 2008|11:55 pm]
[music |Gnarls Barkley]

hmmm
so what do you write about in lj's?
i mean i dont wanna reveal my life over the internet
so i guess announcements i may have for people
news i think you should know?
i dunno
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im kind of a lameass [May. 17th, 2008|01:13 pm]
[music |The Fiery Furnaces- Police Sweater Blood Vow]

lol this thing is so old and full of lame experiences that i totally regret being dramatic about lol
hmmm... so i found out my password to this thing and to my facebook and i totally hate both of them- its too hard to edit this shit- it wont save anything =[
im going back to myspace where i understand the world lol
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hmmmm [May. 27th, 2006|04:05 pm]
[mood | contemplative]
[music |felling this ~Blink 182]

so this year sucked.. i think i say that every year
my boyfriend broke up with me on wednesday... honestly for no reason at all.. everything was perfect for both of us and he got a horrible epiphany, called me and broke my heart. I know this sounds really lame, but not having to settle for someone feels really great.
Ah well, because of this I've decided to make alot of changes about myself. Not my personality, but what i do.
I miss being religious. My life has been really out of control. I have awful rumors spread about me, wayyyy too many boyfriends than necessary, and ridiculously bad grades.
I think at the end of every year i say "Im going to buckle down and get good grades next year" and then i get lazy and give up. But i think the break up has made a new goal for me. Well that goal has always been there, but now i want it more.
anyway. Im going to florida on wednesday..its not going to be fun.. then the next day ima start summer school, and i'll be down for those three weeks then im off to concan for the rest of the summer. I think a summer without a phone or peers might be good for me. Lonely, but i think i need to get used to it. I've been judging people all year and saying how i despise everyone for being stupid, but rather than me doing that, i think im just going to leave the world alone, and only deal with the people i like, and the ones i have to = /
the next 2 years of high school, are gonna be lame.. these are not the best days of my life, i know that much...
maybe college?

oo one more thing!
isn't it fantastic that whenever you go through a situation quotes and songs and movies make so much sense..
the song feeling this has become my favorite song again
"FATE FELL SHORT THIS TIME; SMILE FADES IN THE SUMMER; PLACE YOUR HAND IN MINE I'LL LEAVE WHEN I WANNA"
on my english exam one of the multiple choices on a question about julius caesar was "death is inevitable; but fear is a choice" i dont think its a quote but still it meant alot to me that particular day. Just cause in the story you understand what the quote means, but when you stick it onto another situation it means something completely different. It's fantastic. ahh 
take care everyone!
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BALETED MAH MYSPACE [May. 16th, 2006|07:35 pm]
[Current Location |home]
[mood | sick]
[music |nada]

oi!
hmm im ridiculously bored.
these past three weeks have been fantastic and depressing.
three weeks ago a boy named christian asked me out, hes a total sweetheart and absolutely everything (and then some) i've always wanted in a boy
while depressing, my best friends (Zeke and Josh) and my boyfriend and many other friends are leaving me soon. It's been really sad, i mean i've always known that this is gonna be my last year to hang out with zeke and josh, but it wasn't till I started going out with Christian did I realize how much time I had.
Sooooo.. since Zeke is off to NYU and Josh is off to OU I would like to spend alot more time with them, and Christian is going to Texas State in San Marcos, although he's going to be 6 hours away, its still somewhat nearby
Prom was lame..the actual dance and prepartion was. Dinner was fun and hanging out with Christian is always fun, BUT that was my first and last prom. I looked like a clown, O_O i was sleepy (totally fell asleep after dinner at Aaron's (christian's best friend) house), and there was Tejano music playing for the hour we were there at prom. 
anyway.. rowe sucks...*sigh*
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(no subject) [Mar. 7th, 2006|10:20 am]
wow im shocked this works at school...
im in yearbook right now.. i just finished for the rest of the school year... hells yea..
and then we had pre registration today
so i have alot of left over time..
i got into KMAC!!!
envy me!! yessssss i own!
muah!
tell me whats goin' on homies..
i miss you..
im gonna be gone all spring break.. fun but lame.. i cant hang out with friends or anything
i miss all the OLSeneers!!
orla i miss you the most <3 lol lately ive been craving to hang out with you
i always love talking to you haha

kristian iw shant4iking me and hes a diuucakw 3wqwaew
shaking* dick wad*
jerk punk bitch ho slut... <--- kristian is..
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(no subject) [Aug. 3rd, 2005|02:02 pm]
1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
3. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
4. I will tell you my first memory of you.
5. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
6. I will tell you what food you remind of and why.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal.
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(no subject) [Jul. 27th, 2005|01:07 am]
[mood | gloomy]

bajeezus.. im so bored...what has everyone been up to? well i suppose i could read ur entries... but i've done that... hmm.. tell me your thoughts on anything...

hmm... no cell phone for the summer because is "unnecessary" blarg... band is coming up = / danny says ima hate it... i didnt go last year... i dont even know how to play yet *tee-hee* I'll get it ^_^ uhmm... >_> i ate pizza today... ack! im so bland!!!!

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(no subject) [Jul. 2nd, 2005|12:46 pm]
[mood | confused]

ah today is LAME.... my mom tricked me again.. she always does this crap to me... everytime we go to out aunts house I think we're gonna go do something fun and it ends up that they're (the adults) go do something fun and i stay home and babysit... I hate this... hmmm... = /

wow I have absolutely no news for anyone... same ol' same ol'... hmmm.. I forgoto to sign up for summer school I'm not even close to finishing ---that book im supposed to read---and i haven't even started on to kill a mocking bird... i think it might be boring.. is it?

omg i accidentally deleted my html crap and the website that i got help from doesn't seem to exist anymore and i have no idea how to work it... but i did find out how to make a question mark cursor... look at that thing go... but i don't know what that random peice of html on the top of my page is.... eh i'll figure it out.. maybe

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(no subject) [May. 25th, 2005|07:55 pm]
[mood | busy]

OMG YOU GUYS!!! I haven't written in soooo long. well I'm passing yesss.....Cinco meses [five months] in 2 weeks with Danny! haha great greeat great his b-day is June 30th but the party is July 1st at my casa. My mom sed i can have as many people as i want so anyone is welcome to call just give me a ring and I'll give you info. Thus far it's a sausage fest...so in case ur a girl interested in single freshman boys or ya just like to flirt you might wanna take a guy with ya. Cari see if you can make it. Carly lives very near to me as does Suzy so i want both of them to go as well. Barbie! you too. and keaton and ur girly friend Jordan.... ehhh... I think i've already told all the other people I wanted to invite. but like I sed it's an unlimited invite list. NO DRUGS OR BOOZE!  you will ruin the party if u bring that crap and I'd be really angry... and sad. It's gonna be swimming but we're gonna have other crap goin' on... I need to see if anyone has DDR that would be cool to have cuz for PS2 the only cool game that I seem to have is Tony Hawk Underground and my brother sez that game is dope....Danny sez he still likes it...but that boy is gonna be swimming with me

I need to lose weight. I am getting so fat cuz I dont do anything anymore. erg need to lose it by that party cuz I dont want to embarass danny and all his (and my) friends will be like what the crap she ginormous. tee-hee I can do it. I just need to work on it. Once we get outa school I can lose it.

SCHOOLS ALMOST OUT! needless to say I'm sure you've already noticed. I'm just expressing my excitement for it haha. I HATE BEING A FRESHMAN upperclassmen suck donkey balls. No offense. Im'a break the chain

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(no subject) [Mar. 2nd, 2005|08:30 pm]
[music |A Pirate Life for Me]

 
Sk8orDie0527 [6:29 PM]:  u krack me up
Dont LOOk7 [6:29 PM]:  crack!? what?
Dont LOOk7 [6:29 PM]:  haha j/k yes I know
Sk8orDie0527 [6:30 PM]:  thats my slag u know wut ur crmpin my style man
Sk8orDie0527 [6:30 PM]:  lol j/j
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  what
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  Im making ur style
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  Im giving u style
Sk8orDie0527 [6:31 PM]:  hahahaha
Sk8orDie0527 [6:31 PM]:  thats true
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  just u hanging around me makes u have alot of style
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  cuz I have plenty of style to offer
Sk8orDie0527 [6:31 PM]:  well u know it
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  and Im still the coolest person in skool
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  lol haha j/k!!!
Sk8orDie0527 [6:32 PM]:  yes u r the koolest person aty escuela
 
 
 PsychosRfunny [6:38 PM]:  monkey
Dont LOOk7 [6:38 PM]:  booger
PsychosRfunny [6:39 PM]:  yes you are
PsychosRfunny [6:39 PM]:  your a stupid monkey booger
Dont LOOk7 [6:41 PM]:  ur a stupid monkey that picks his nose
PsychosRfunny [6:41 PM]:  no i dont
Dont LOOk7 [6:42 PM]:  yes u do
PsychosRfunny [6:42 PM]:  says who
Dont LOOk7 [6:42 PM]:  the golden monkey king..
Dont LOOk7 [6:42 PM]:  mallah
PsychosRfunny [6:43 PM]:  major dork
PsychosRfunny [6:43 PM]:  dorkness of dorkyness
Dont LOOk7 [6:43 PM]:  bow down to me!
PsychosRfunny [6:43 PM]:  nah dont feel like it
PsychosRfunny [6:44 PM]:  *bows just a little* ok maybe
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(no subject) [Mar. 2nd, 2005|07:54 pm]
Danny 
Sk8orDie0527 [6:29 PM]:  u krack me up
Dont LOOk7 [6:29 PM]:  crack!? what?
Dont LOOk7 [6:29 PM]:  haha j/k yes I know
Sk8orDie0527 [6:30 PM]:  thats my slag u know wut ur crmpin my style man
Sk8orDie0527 [6:30 PM]:  lol j/j
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  what
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  Im making ur style
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  Im giving u style
Sk8orDie0527 [6:31 PM]:  hahahaha
Sk8orDie0527 [6:31 PM]:  thats true
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  just u hanging around me makes u have alot of style
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  cuz I have plenty of style to offer
Sk8orDie0527 [6:31 PM]:  well u know it
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  and Im still the coolest person in skool
Dont LOOk7 [6:31 PM]:  lol haha j/k!!!
Sk8orDie0527 [6:32 PM]:  yes u r the koolest person aty escuela
 
Alex
 PsychosRfunny [6:38 PM]:  monkey
Dont LOOk7 [6:38 PM]:  booger
PsychosRfunny [6:39 PM]:  yes you are
PsychosRfunny [6:39 PM]:  your a stupid monkey booger
Dont LOOk7 [6:41 PM]:  ur a stupid monkey that picks his nose
PsychosRfunny [6:41 PM]:  no i dont
Dont LOOk7 [6:42 PM]:  yes u do
PsychosRfunny [6:42 PM]:  says who
Dont LOOk7 [6:42 PM]:  the golden monkey king..
Dont LOOk7 [6:42 PM]:  mallah
PsychosRfunny [6:43 PM]:  major dork
PsychosRfunny [6:43 PM]:  dorkness of dorkyness
Dont LOOk7 [6:43 PM]:  bow down to me!
PsychosRfunny [6:43 PM]:  nah dont feel like it
PsychosRfunny [6:44 PM]:  *bows just a little* ok maybe
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(no subject) [Feb. 5th, 2005|01:57 pm]
ONE, reply with your name and i will write something about you.

TWO, i will then tell what song(s) remind me of you.

THREE, i will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.

FOUR, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
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(no subject) [Feb. 5th, 2005|11:31 am]
[mood | content]
[music |Go With the Flow ~Queens of the Stone Age]

hey buuuuu-dies.....eesh well I'm sorry I haven't written in so long. Relationships are hard to keep. lol Not that I don't like talking to him or anything but i dont have time for anyone else but him (well and me!) haha wells Im grounded! crap, Progress report came in yesterday..blah... I somehow ended up failing spanish..ehh.. and algebra still... algebra is my fault I know that much.. I've been spending too much time on the phone rather than on my homework...so yes I've already made a sacrafice...less telephono. hmm.. whats else... oo I finally finished that 3 week recovery course for my algebra credit...wOOt! lol I hope I passed that last test though O_O If I didn't Im screwed or at least Im bound to be... I need to pass or I'll just have wasted 3 weeks of my after school time and thats no good. lol                                                                                                hmmm... one month is coming up for me and danny... woo-hoo we aren't gonna do anything special though. haha He's so great. He thinks its stupid to celebrate that so yea haha but hes looking foward to Valentines Day though. lol wow things with us are working out really well... He always with me at school. I've told him if there was ever a time where he just wanted to be with his friends that would be cool but he was like 'no I like being around you, you're cool.' ^_^ ahhhh... haha hes super awesome

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(no subject) [Jan. 13th, 2005|10:12 pm]
[mood | drained]
[music |Set it Off ~Thousand Foot Krutch]

..::yawn!::.. Im berry sleepy... well I haven't updated in a while so I'm just gonna make this one quick (or at least type quick) Friday ended up being an awesome suprise. My friends threw my a suprise party they were evily working with my mom and my mom told me we were gonna go somewhere. They blind folded me and put my in clothes and someone blinded me with silly string haha it was funny. COOKIES GALORE!!! hahaha Cari and her momma got me a really good cookie cake... and Jess bought me some cookies (but I was too full to get to them!) and Jim made me some super good cookies. haha VERY cool... hehe..Andrea got me a barnes and nobles gift card! wOOt. I have to buy some spark notes for a Tale of Two Cities haha! lucky me! and Steph got me some cute earings that look like disco balls haha. party around my face! ha Im a dork hmmm.. we watched napolean dynamite... we were all up till 4:45 watching it. everyone was nodding off though. I think the only reason we stayed up was in fear that someone would write on us! haha hmmm... yep and then on sunday we went to the movies! (everyone thinks my friends are on crack!!!) lol haha hmm... well yea Danny asked me out <333 tee-hee super happy I like him alot. He's soooo sweet. Seriously now... I think he's gonna last a while. He really does like me and he took some time to get to know me. So it's all good. ^_^ hmmm..

Well Cari!  I just BARELY got the invite from Codey today so I'm not sure if I'm going. Danny wants to go but who knows I might have to take my momma (or both!) or not go at all lol But I really do want to go. And if I can't make it I hope you have LOTS of fun! not too much!

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florida [Jan. 1st, 2005|10:32 pm]
[mood | ecstatic]

hey all Im here in florida... wow its fun but my mom is in a bad mood and shes been yelling at everyone.. I say we split up and meet up at the end of the day... BUT now my phone isn't working! ergness... sprint sucks they always charge me for something I didnt do and it annoys me soooo much! They always turn off my phone because they say I over spend or something and is so stupid. And their website isn't working so I can't go see what they're accusing me of doing this time >= P I'm gonna have to search for a phone number... well my phone was working earlier today and this guy Danny that I like (not the weird obsessive Danny but another one) asked me out today! tee-hee yay! I didn't think he even noticed me like anymore than a friend but I was wrong. So this Saturday (hopefully) when I get back I can go to the movies with him. He didn't ask me to be his girlfriend but on a date. haha Super awesome I'm excited! lol wells I'm gonna go peace out kiddos...
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